Destiny and my personal mission

I used to believe in determinism, that I had a fate that could not change, mine and everyone's future was predestined. What it was that decided my fate I couldn't be sure, it definitely had something to do with my psychology, perhaps even the chemical DNA of my body, I believe what I called it was my constitution, and it was with me from birth to death. To be sure somethings about us we cannot change, and of course much of what we do is habit, but we are not fixed on a single path, a single calling, we can make life changing decisions. It happened to me in 2015, I had lead a fairly chaotic lifestyle for a few years and wanted to make a change, I would say I had a vision, a concept of what a better life would look like, I'd come close a couple of times, only for me to end up back in hospital and back into illness, this time I wanted it to last and nearly five years later I'm still going strong, maybe stronger than ever.

At the age of twenty I read a book called 'Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance', about philosophy and instantly I was hooked, from that moment on I was going to write a great philosophy book, and these blogs are part of that journey. Very early on I already had the title, 'The Aim of Reason', and that remains to this day, back then I saw communism as the answer to the progress of the human race, now I see the answer as coming more from spirituality, to hopefully setup my own version of ethics and morality. I saying 'my own' make me think of all the years I struggled with illusions of grandeur, having seen similar symptoms in many of the patients I have met, I'm not sure what it means to me anymore. My thoughts still flitter around the idea that my thoughts are influential, but maybe I am just one of many influential minds, all working with the same goal.

Shared purpose is a wonderful thing, we do not have to all believe the same thing or all act in the same way, but if we could all agree that mankind is destined to act together, maybe we can share our dreams. I doubt that my drive to philosophize will ever stop, my wanting to write something clever, imaginative and deep will always be with me, but for years i couldn't write and still knew deep down I had something to say. Fixated is a word sometimes used to describe an unusual obsession, but many of us have these dreams of being someone important of having skills that should make us known to all people, famous, but not everyone will achieve a global, or even local, audience. Maybe social media will encourage more people to give it a go, I have little doubt that lots of slightly famous people is better than a few global icons. The global destiny, just as my own personal journey, has choices to make, what we need is a system of propaganda that shows everyone the Truth of which paths are best.