Why Should I?

I wanted to call this blog 'Why should I change?', but not everyone needs to change, well not to make dramatic change anyway. I did make a dramatic change to my lifestyle, I can't really remember why I wanted to change, maybe because I made a serious suicide attempt or maybe the negative lifestyle was distressing me. Anyway, the change was huge, I was on one path and deep down in my soul i wanted to be on a better path, so I committed myself to a healthier life, a life of responsibility and helping others. Both of those aspects have meant that over four years later I am enjoying the most productive, peaceful and happy time in my entire adult life, the change was big and the change was definitely benefical.

Many times philosophers have noted that what I will do and what I should do are different things, some saying that should is just a meaningless word. But I believe that there is a should in our minds, the best road possible, as perfect as God is perfect, reaching our full potential. Unfortunately we are unable to follow the perfect path offered by God or human nature. Maybe the devil plays a role in stopping us becoming perfect beings, certainly in my previous life, before i made the change, the devil played a major role in keeping me destructive and misguiding my creativity. Still there is the 'should be and should do' in my plans for the future, I want to be a successful writer and use my philosophy to influence global politics, that has been my vision since I was twenty, however maybe the potential is beyond the actual.

Of course we should reach for the stars, wanting the best life possible is a part of the human conditions and failing to achieve it is part of life. Should is a powerful word, many people just do what they have to to get enough money to live the life they want outside of work. I'm on benefits and all my work is voluntary, admittedly The voluntary work may offer me a greater chance at paid work, and I hope soon to have paid work, but I do the work because it is meaningful, I am helping people. I wish that attitudes would change and more people work to help the less fortunate rather than working for more selfish rewards. Perhaps the greatest 'should' is happiness, we all work for greater happiness, and once we reach it change still needs to happen. I've been very happy for a few months, but that doesn't mean I don't want change, I still look to challenge myself and further my achievements, it just means that failing to reach perfection is not a worry, I would still be happy.