Realization and rationalization

I want to consider two minds, the chaos of consciousness and the organization of the understanding, these two minds are the reality and the rational. For me it is much like the soul and the spirit, I like to think of a solid part to our minds and a much more fluid and changing part. There is little doubt that we have a private experience, I have spoken before about telepathy, we are both connected and individual. Telepathy gives us a small part of the persons reality and to learn more takes verbal conversation. But the consciousness is the reality and this can grow and shrink, we have the experience of the moment, the sense data provided by our senses. Reality takes in the sense data but also expands to the past and the future.

My current reality is really quite stable, despite years of drug use and psychotic episodes I feel my reality is strong. Over the last few years my reality has grown and grown, I am now able to look at the past without guilt and the future without fear. That is not to say those feeling don't cross my mind, they do, but they have no place in my reality so they pass without damage. Two words I have found hard to avoid recently are 'control' and 'rationalization', control I find very hard to realize, but there is definitely a rational part to my brain. The part that organizes, the part that allows me to write these blogs and in writing these blogs give me strength of mind, maybe control.

The ability to have pleasant experiences is down to the realization, the reality we carry around with us all day and perhaps all night is realized through our emotions. Currently I'm very happy and my reality shines with good feelings, but there have been times of depression and times of fluctuating mood, in these times shrunk as I try to control my emotions. But you can't control your emotions, we must learn strengthen the soul or the rational by harnessing our motivations. Positive actions lead to positive mood, that is how I have overcome my disability, it starts with the realization that I am skilled, then the rationalization to seek meaningful work and occupation. Now I have a realization that I can do and that I am doing and my reality stretches years into the future into what I wish to become and I am able to rationalize my beliefs and emotions. Since the very first philosophy book I read, and fell instantly in love with philosophy, I have realized the biggest divide in metaphysics, between the solid and the fluid, I believe our minds contain both.