Telepathy - a fictional reality

Ever since my major psychotic episode in 2011 I have believed that we are all connected through telepathy. Although my first serious experience of telepathy happened whilst in a mental hospital in 2008, I did not understand it as a real concept within my belief system. Now I have many theories about the structure of telepathy I still do not have a concrete idea of its actions and potential. My first thought was that it creates either conflict or peace, as we all communicate we either agree or disagree, but this cannot be the first principle of telepathy, as the first step must be to recognize other authorities influence. By this I mean, the feeling of flow and of flowing together, agreement is the first experience and trying to go against the flow is hard work.

I will just tell the story of a telepathic incident. In 2008 I was in hospital, believing that I was talking with my soul mate, purely our conversation was in my head. But I had had enough of just conversations and I demanded that she show herself to me. It was the morning and I heard her voice saying, 'I'm on my way', I kept asking 'where are you, are you close?'. She would reply to me, 'I'm in the car park', 'I'm coming up the stairs, I'm walking down the corridor', then finally the voice said, 'I'm coming through the doors'. The doors opened and it was a nurse I knew very well, I put my arms out for a hug but she looked distracted and ignored me. It wasn't the nurse I thought it was, turns out I had been talking to a fictional nurse, but I still believe I was having telepathic communication with the nurse that walked through to door. The upsetting thing is I have never asked that nurse about what was happening and I was to have a few more similar experiences with the same nurse, even today I try to talk to her in my mind.

Telepathy is not only a feeling, but also an exploration of the unconscious. I often wonder if Jung's collective unconscious is similar to my idea of a unified unconscious. There is a dark area to our minds and mine is full of unfinished conversations, I search in this darkness for my soul and it's connections with the whole of existence. Within my psychotic episodes there was a very real feeling of a battle between good and evil. However, now I'm stable I feel only positive spiritual feelings, I am sure there exists evil spirits but it is the responsibility of the 'individual', to promote positive spirituality.